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The lead singer of Sanctus Real, along with his wife, have shared their story behind Lead Me. You can find the video here. I think that this is such a true-to-life look at marriage, and a place that we so often find ourselves.
While reading through Matt and Sarah's story and looking on the Sanctus Real web site, I found this blog. Written by Sarah and Matt as an update on the status of their unborn child Bowen, the blog, and this specific post caught my eye. Although not entirely written as a song yet, and not yet published, the words to All of Me describe my thoughts on foster care and my children specifically.
All of Me
Afraid to love something that could break
Could I move on if you were torn away?
I’m so close to what I can’t control
Can’t give you half my heart and pray He makes you whole
You’re gonna have all of me
You’re gonna have all of me
You’re worth every falling tear
You’re worth facing any fear
You’re gonna know all my love
Even if it’s not enough
Enough to mend our broken hearts
But giving you all of me is where I’ll start
I won’t let sadness steal you from my arms
I won’t let pain keep you from my heart
I’ll trade the fear of all that I could lose
For every moment I’ll share with you
You’re gonna have all of me
You’re gonna have all of me
You’re worth every falling tear
You’re worth facing any fear
You’re gonna know all my love
Even if it’s not enough
Enough to mend our broken hearts
But giving you all of me is where I’ll start
Heaven brought you to this moment
It’s too wonderful to speak
You’re worth all of me
You’re worth all of me
Let me recklessly love you
Even if I bleed
You’re worth all of me
You’re worth all of me
If you're newer to our blog and don't know our full foster/adoption story, you can read the highlights here, or click here to see all of the posts that I've written within the adoption category. Right now we have four children living in our home, only two of those are legally ours. We are currently fighting for the right to adopt Cash (paperwork was served to his bio-mom today, so please be in prayer for us there) and we don't know what God has planned for Analeigh yet.
I'm not guaranteed tomorrow with any of my kids. That's not promised to me. But, I do know, and want my kids to fully feel, that they have ALL of my heart. Not just pieces. The pain is so great when you start to love someone that much, but the rewards are tremendous.
6 comments:
That was an amazing post. I really have such a hard time understanding how you can do what you do, knowing that you might wake up one morning to someone telling you that your child will no longer be living with you. I have more respect than you know for you and your husband. God has placed your children is such wonderful arms.
-Keri
www.4littleladies.com
You and Heath are amazing people! I know in my heart that Cash is not going anywhere ans whatever ya'll want to happen with Analeigh I believe will happen too. Just believe and it will happen!
Aunt Tammy
You totally made me cry with this one! I can so relate and I couldn't help but think of the 5 previous foster kids we've had, plus our little precious baby we have now. He's totally in God's hands. People ask me all the time what's going to happen with him, if we'll get to keep him, etc. My answer is always the same. It's all up to God. Truth is, like you said, we don't know how long we'll have any of them...even if we gave birth to them. We cherish each and every day.
Love ya!
Stacy
midlifearmywife.com
I love this post so much, Brit! Your family never ceases to amaze me...I absolutely love both your willingness and desire to serve the Lord in your ministry to these kids.
I know that pain all too well. Loving someone and accepting them as a member of your family when they might only be there temporary is one of the scariest things ever. It's so hard for me to make myself vulnerable, while loving these kids. It is so worth it though to risk that pain for the goal of love! The love that these kids NEED so badly.
Thanks for being so real here. It is so appreciated. Love you!
~Kylee
This is such a beautiful post. I thank God for giving y'all such big, faithful hearts to do what you do. This post also makes me remember how God gave me a peace during my pregnancy to not be fearful of miscarriage because of how Abraham had the faith to offer up his own son. My son is God's. Not really mine to keep.
I'm crying too! Happens a lot these days. The kids are transitioning back home on the 27th of the month. So hard to think about life without them and saying "good-bye". Even though we set out on this foster journey for adoption we knew there was risk and it is all in God's hands. We always said we were all in. Even though it hurts now, I do not regret loving these kids fully!
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